Journal entry on April 30th…
“Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.” John 12:24
This verse has come to my mind several times recently. I have a choice. No one is making me serve the Lord.
I could tell the Lord no.
I could tell my husband no.
I could just live my life content with where I am and what I have.
But my life will be pointless, all about me. I will not grow that way or bear fruit. You never can if you reject God’s plan.
But if I die to self, all it’s wants and comforts, I can bring forth much fruit.
I would rather die to self and produce fruit, then sit peacefully on a shelf.
The dying process can be painful. It is not always easy. But as soon as we start to see new growth it’s so exciting! Nothing as exciting as seeing new, baby sprouts coming up!
The dying process involves saying bye to those we hold so dear, giving up the little comforts that make our home, probably the hardest coming up soon for us will be saying goodbye to our dear, little Charlie pup….it helps that he is going to our mom/Grammy, but saying goodbye is never easy. We may not see the fruit of that in our lives just yet, but we will see growth.
Growth in our faith – faith that God will provide and protect. Growth as we lean more on Him as our best friend and comfort. Growth as we see Him direct each step.
Thank you all so much for reaching out and praying! I do plan to continue sharing this journey, but the next few weeks as we part and prepare will be some of the busiest and most trying.
I may share a few more journal entries, but we will see. They can feel very personal and raw, but I pray that I can be an encouragement in your walk with the Lord, whatever way He may be leading you.